There are people who nurse a fairly secret spirit of vengeance and say: "I have been made to suffer, I shall make them suffer." This indeed becomes nasty enough for people to notice that it should not exist, though it is not always easy to resist. It indicates something very petty in the nature. It may be very sensitive, it may be very emotional, it may have a certain intensity but it is quite petty, it is all turned back on oneself, and is quite petty…
You can make use of the reason and can tell yourself something which is very true: that in our being it is only egoism which always suffers, and that if there was no egoism there would be no suffering, and that if one wants the spiritual life, one must overcome his egoism. So the first thing to do is to look straight at this suffering, perceive to what an extent it is the expression of a very petty egoism and then sweep the place clean, make a clean ground and say: "I do not want this dirt, I am going to clean my inner chamber."
